Relentless

I received a letter from someone last week but i didn't bother to pick it up until now. Im glad because something she wrote just hit me really hard. I feel a little embarrassed saying this cause it's pretty girly - "sometimes the one strong wind that catches us off guard is all we need to discover the power of our wings."
This year I have never received so much of what I did not expect (and it's only half over). And in a way it has been good. I am not going to try to lie and say I am happier then ever, the last couple months could never surpass the smiles brought to my face in the last few years. But now I would say I have a contentment like never before. I wasn't uncontent because of the people in my life, but more because of the one who wasn't.
I told my girlfriend before we faded away that I was a fool for trying to be her man when I was still a little boy. It was true and I still am just a boy. There are places in my heart that have not been cleared away yet. And it's boyish behavior to think I can do without making full way for the Lord when it is His already (plus how many times do I continue to fail without?) So Lord..for the ache in my heart and the bruise on my body I am thankful. You have faithfully pursued my heart and pushed me unexpectedly. Honestly when I asked you to mold my heart I didn't know you were really gonna go at it. I know there is a lot more to do

"Your Job is the relentless pursuit of who God has made you to be."
-Velvet Elvis