Todays pretty much the worst day. I feel I have been pretty optimistic about my injury a little over a month ago but today im a wreck. Everyones been amazing and so caring. This last month would have been much different without their support. But today it got turned upside down on me.
I have been getting workers compensation and they were telling me the number one concern was getting me better. I am torn because that compensation has been taken away after going back to work yesterday. But here I am sitting in my room because I am in too much pain to continue working (and now I am not getting paid). I fell asleep at 5am this morning unable to sleep from the medication only to wake up and have to go in 2 hours later.
If my health was really the number one concern would I have had to question going into work today. No I wouldn't have to but in reality the system is the number concern, getting me back into the system.
Also I wont be getting paid while I am away from work going through rehab. Poor me right?
I guess I am torn because I feel like I shouldn't be working yet and now I have to balance between not getting paid and taking care of myself. (I thought I had gotten workers compensation because of the fact they recognized this was work related and I shouldn't have to make that choice - guess they were just buttering me up, now that I am back, who gives)